inside of nowhere

inside of nowhere
i stood, wandering
whilst wondering what
it would be like to
stand amongst friends
and whether i even had
any. feeling more alone
in a crowded bar than
sitting by myself in my
armchair watching the
birds and feeling the
morning chill on my skin.

memories grow wild

they wore flowers in
their hair and beards.
the grasses beneath our
feet quickly trampled flat.
i laughed along with them
but the man in front of me
could not see for a time.
memories have a tendancy
to grow branches longer
than their roots,
they invite us to climb and
explore until we ourselves
become entangled and forgotten.

tomato soup for supper

πšπš˜πš–πšŠπšπš˜ πšœπš˜πšžπš™ πšπš˜πš› πšœπšžπš™πš™πšŽπš›,
πšŠπšπšŠπš’πš—.
πš’ πšπš˜πš›πšπš˜πš 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚝𝚘 πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπšžπš™πšŽπš›πš–πšŠπš›πš”πšŽπš,
πšŠπšπšŠπš’πš—.
(πš’ πšπš’πšπš—β€™πš πšπš˜πš›πšπšŽπš).

πš’β€™πš•πš• πš–πšŠπš”πšŽ πš’πš πšπš’πšπšπšŽπš›πšŽπš—πš
πš–πšŠπš’πš‹πšŽ πšŠπšπšπš’πš—πš πš™πšŽπšŠπšœ
πš’πš—πšœπšπšŽπšŠπš 𝚘𝚏 πš•πšŽπš—πšπš’πš•πšœ –
πš πšŠπš’πš, πš’ πšπš’πš πšπš‘πšŠπš πš•πšŠπšœπš πšπš’πš–πšŽ.
πšπš’πš—πšŽ.
πš‘πš˜πš  πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πšœπš™πš’πš—πšŠπšŒπš‘?
πš πšŽβ€™πš›πšŽ 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 πšπš‘πšŠπš 𝚝𝚘𝚘.

πš–πš’ 𝚍𝚘𝚐 πš•πš˜πš˜πš”πšœ πšžπš™ 𝚊𝚝 πš–πšŽ
πšœπš’πš–πš™πšŠπšπš‘πšŽπšπš’πšŒπšŠπš•πš•πš’,
πšŠπš—πš πšπš‘πšŽπš— 𝚊𝚝 πš‘πš’πšœ πšŽπš–πš™πšπš’ πš‹πš˜πš πš•.

it’ll be fine

𝚊 πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽ πšŠπšπšπšŠπš’πš› πš πš’πšπš‘ 𝚊 πšŒπšŠπš—πšŠπš›πš’
πšπš‘πšŠπš πšŽπš—πšπšœ πš πš’πšπš‘ πšπš‘πšŽ πš‹πš’πšπšπšŽπš›
𝚝𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎 𝚘𝚏 πš πš’πš—πšŽ, πšŠπš—πš πšπš‘πšŽ
πš‹πšŽπšŽπšπš•πšŽ πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πš–πš’ πšπš˜πš—πšπšžπšŽ,
πšŒπš•πš’πšŒπš”πš’πš—πš, πšŒπš•πš’πšŒπš”πš’πš—πš, πšŒπš•πš’πšŒπš”πš’πš—πš.
πšπš‘πšŽ πš™πš˜πš˜πš› πš–πš˜πš˜πš—, πšœπš‘πšŽ πš‘πšŠπšœ 𝚝𝚘
πš πš’πšπš—πšŽπšœπšœ πšπš‘πš’πšœ πšπšŽπš— 𝚘𝚏 πš’πš—πš’πššπšžπš’πšπš’
πš πš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πš›πšŠπšπšŽ πš‘πšŠπšœ πš–πšŠπšπšŽ πš‘πš’πšœ
πšπš˜πš›πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πš‘πš˜πš–πšŽ, πš πš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ
πšŒπšŠπš› πš›πšŠπšπš’πš˜πšœ πš‹πš•πšŠπšœπš 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏
πš™πšŽπšπš›πš˜πš• πšŸπšŽπš‘πš’πšŒπš•πšŽπšœ πšŸπš˜πš–πš’πšπš’πš—πš
πšπšžπš–πšŽπšœ – πšŠπš—πš πšŽπšŸπšŽπš›πš’πš˜πš—πšŽ
πš™πš›πšŽπšπšŽπš—πšπšœ – πšπšŽπš•πš•πš’πš—πš πšπš‘πšŽπš–πšœπšŽπš•πšŸπšŽπšœ
πšπš‘πšŠπš πšπš‘πš’πšœ πš’πšœ πš˜πš”, πš™πš›πš˜πšπšŽπšŒπš πš–πš’
πš™πšŽπšŠπšŒπšŽ, πš’πšβ€™πš•πš• πš‹πšŽ πšπš’πš—πšŽ.

the cage that tells me

πšπš‘πšŽ 𝚌𝚊𝚐𝚎 πšπš‘πšŠπš πšπšŽπš•πš•πšœ πš–πšŽ
πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πš‘πšŽπš› πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽ πšŠπšπšπšŠπš’πš›πšœ
πš πš’πšπš‘ πšπš‘πšŽ πšŒπšŠπš—πšŠπš›πš’.
πšπš‘πšŽ πš™πš˜πš˜πš› πš–πš˜πš˜πš—,
𝚝𝚘 πš πš‘πš’πšŒπš‘ πšπš‘πšŽ πšπš’πš™πšœπš’πšŽπšœ
πšœπšπš’πš•πš• πšœπš’πš—πš, πšŠπš—πš πšπš‘πšŽ
𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 πš–πš˜πš˜πš— πš’πš— πš–πš’ πšŒπš•πš˜πšœπšŽπš,
πš•πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŽπš– πšπšŽπš•πš• πš–πšŽ πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—πš,
πš•πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŽπš– πšœπš™πšŽπšŠπš” 𝚝𝚘 πš–πšŽ πš’πš—
πš–πšŽπšπšŠπš™πš‘πš˜πš›πšœ, 𝚊𝚜 πšπš‘πšŽπš’ 𝚜𝚊𝚒 πšπš‘πšŽπš’ πšœπš™πšŽπšŠπš”,
πšπš‘πš’πšœ πš πš’πš—πšŽ πš’πšœ πš‹πš’πšπšπšŽπš›,
πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πš–πš’ πšπš˜πš—πšπšžπšŽ,
πš’ πš‘πšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚊 πš‹πšŽπšŽπšπš•πšŽ.

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πšœπš™πšŠπš›πš›πš˜πš  πš˜πš— πš–πš’ πš πš’πš—πšπš˜πš πšœπš’πš•πš•
πš•πš˜πš˜πš”πš’πš—πš πš’πš—, πš πš‘πš’πš•πšœπš πš’
πš•πš˜πš˜πš” 𝚘𝚞𝚝.
πšœπšžπš–πš–πšŽπš› πšœπšžπš— πš‹πšŽπšŠπšπš’πš—πš
πš›πšŽπš•πšŽπš—πšπš•πšŽπšœπšœπš•πš’ πš˜πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πšπš•πšŠπšœπšœ πš™πšŠπš—πšŽ.
πš’ πš πšŠπš—πš 𝚝𝚘 πš•πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŽ πš‹πš’πš›πš πš’πš—πšœπš’πšπšŽ
πšŠπš—πš πšπš’πšŸπšŽ πš’πš πšœπš‘πšŽπš•πšπšŽπš› πšπš›πš˜πš– πšπš‘πšŽ πš‘πšŽπšŠπš,
πš‹πšžπš πšπš‘πšŠπšβ€™πšœ πš—πš˜πš πš‘πš˜πš  πš πš’πš•πš πšπš‘πš’πš—πšπšœ πš πš˜πš›πš”.
πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπš™πšŠπš›πš›πš˜πš  πšπš˜πšŽπšœπš—β€™πš πšŒπš˜πš—πšœπš’πšπšŽπš› πš–πšŽ.
πšœπš‘πšŽ πš’πšœ πšŠπšπšπšŽπš› 𝚊 πšœπš™πš’πšπšŽπš› πšœπš™πš’πš—πš—πš’πš—πš πš’πšπšœ πš πšŽπš‹
πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πšŒπš˜πš›πš—πšŽπš› 𝚘𝚏 πšπš‘πšŽ πšπš›πšŠπš–πšŽ.
πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπš™πšŠπš›πš›πš˜πš  πš•πšŽπšŠπšŸπšŽπšœ
πšŠπš—πš πš’ πšŠπš– πš•πšŽπšπš πš πš’πšπš‘ πšπš‘πšŽ πšŠπš‹πšœπšŽπš—πšŒπšŽ 𝚘𝚏
πš‹πš’πš›πš πšŠπš—πš πšœπš™πš’πšπšŽπš› πšŠπš•πš’πš”πšŽ.

behold

behold the sea of absence,
behold the sea of centuries,
my blood kneeling on a
sunken tree,
and the arm of my anguish
pouring out into the
warm air.

lady of light

lady of light,
i command you,
i beg you,
hear me speak with unvoice,
hear what i have unsaid,
with this love i love you,
with this i curse you,
the knife in my back,
broken.

when night came

πš πš‘πšŽπš— πš—πš’πšπš‘πš πšŒπšŠπš–πšŽ,
πš’ πšœπš–πšŽπš•πš•πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŠπš πš–πš’ πš‘πšŠπš—πšπšœ
πšœπš–πšŽπš•πš•πšŽπš πš•πš’πš”πšŽ πšπš‘πšŽ πš—πš’πšπš‘πš.
πš‘πšŽ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ 𝚌𝚊𝚟𝚎
πš πš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπš™πš’πšπšŽπš› 𝚘𝚏 πšπšŽπš›πš›πš˜πš›
𝚠𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚜 πšπš‘πšŽ πš‘πš˜πšžπš›πšœ πš˜πš— πš‹πš’πšπšπšŽπš› πš‹πš˜πš—πšŽπšœ
πšπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πš•πš˜πš—πšŽπš•πš’πš—πšŽπšœπšœ πšŽπš‘πš’πšœπšπšŽπš πš’πš— πš™πš’πšŽπšŒπšŽπšœ.
πš’πš πš πšŠπšœπš—β€™πš πš–πšŽ,
πš’πš πšŒπš˜πšžπš•πš πš‹πšŠπš›πšŽπš•πš’ πš‹πšŽ πš–πšŽ,
πš–πšŠπš’πš‹πšŽ πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πš‹πš’ πš–πš’ πšœπš’πšπšŽ,
πšπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πš πšŽπš›πšŽ πš–πšŠπš—πš’, πš•πš˜πšœπš,
πš‘πš˜πš™πšŽπš•πšŽπšœπšœ, πš’πš— πšπšŠπš›πš” πš‹πš•πš˜πš˜πš
πšπš‘πšŽπš’ πš›πšŠπš— 𝚝𝚘 πšπš’πšŽ,
πšπš‘πšŽπš’ πš›πšŠπš— πš πš’πšπš‘ πš‹πš›πš˜πš”πšŽπš— πšœπš”πšŽπš•πšŽπšπš˜πš—πšœ
πš‹πšŽπšπš˜πš›πšŽ πš›πšŽπšŠπšŒπš‘πš’πš—πš πšπš‘πšŽ πš›πšŠπšŸπš’πš—πšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πšœπš•πšŽπšŽπš™
πšπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πš’πšœ 𝚊 πš›πšŽπš πš•πš’πšπš‘πš πšπš‘πšŠπš πš‹πš˜πš’πš•πšœ
πš›πšŽπšœπšπš•πšŽπšœπšœπš•πš’,
πšŽπš•πšŸπšŽπšœ πšŠπš—πš πšπš˜πš‹πš•πš’πš—πšœ πšŒπš˜πš–πšŽ πšŠπš—πš
𝚌𝚞𝚝 πšπš‘πšŽ πšŽπš’πšŽπš•πš’πšπšœ πš πš’πšπš‘ πšœπšŒπš’πšœπšœπš˜πš›πšœ.
𝚊𝚝 πšπšŠπš πš— πš—πš˜ πš˜πš—πšŽ πšŠπš›πš›πš’πšŸπšŽπšœ
πš‹πšžπš πš‹πš’πš›πš πšπš‘πš›πš˜πšŠπšπšœ πš πšŽπš›πšŽ πšŒπš˜πš–πš’πš—πš.
πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πšπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ, πš‘πš’πšπš’πš—πš πš πšŽπšŠπš”πš•πš’
πšŠπš–πš˜πš—πšπšœπš πšπš‘πšŽ πš•πšŽπšŠπšŸπšŽπšœ 𝚘𝚏 πšπš‘πšŽ
πš™πšžπš›πš™πš•πšŽ πšŠπš’πš›.
πš’ πšπšŽπš•πš• πš πš‘πšŠπš πš’ πš•πšŽπšŠπš›πš—πšŽπš,
πš•πš’πš”πšŽ πš πš‘πšŽπš— πš’ πšœπš‘πšŠπšπšŽπš 𝚊 πšπš›πšŽπšŽ.
πš’ 𝚜𝚊𝚒 πš πš‘πšŠπš πš’ πš‘πšŠπš πšπš˜πš›πšπš˜πšπšπšŽπš—,
πšœπš’πš—πšŒπšŽ πšπš‘πšŽπš— πš–πš’ πš‘πšŽπšŠπš›πš 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πš‹πšŠπš›πšŽπšπš˜πš˜πš.